Monday 20 October 2014

The Monroe Legacy - G.4. Chapter 9 - No More Hiding

Once the snow melted it was easy to forget it had happened, within a week all signs that it had ever been were gone and life moved on as normal. Lillia half-hoped that her encounter with Noki had just been the result of the winter madness but she soon started seeing him around campus and knew that it wasn't the case. 

Somehow it was a month before Rose realised he was there, perhaps he had started out in another social circle to them but soon enough, after a big football game which ASU won in style, he appeared at their house for the victory party. Eyes skating across Lillia without pause he focused on Rose whose jaw had dropped and face had blanched even as she hung round the neck of her latest jock boyfriend. He strode across and said something quietly to the pair before leading Rose off to a nearby bedroom and closing the door behind them.



Lillia was staggered, even for Rose that was slutty and even for Noki that was fast! She tried not to watch the door for their reappearance wishing for once that she was drunk and could just put it aside and party. Ever since the start of the year she'd been successfully avoiding the shoddy choices that alcohol seemed to inspire her to make but right now a warm flat beer and a night of frivolity seemed pretty appealing.

A few minutes later Rose and Noki emerged, neither of them bearing any signs of a passionate moment, in fact they seemed... almost.... friendly?

As her cousin made her way over Lillia tried to play it cool, not sure what might have been said or how much she was supposed to know about his presence on campus.

'So Anoki transferred to ASU', Rose began, her nonchalant tone confirming that he hadn't given Lillia away.



Lillia shrugged, 'Oh really? It seems like kind of a random move. Does that mean he wants you back?'

It was Rose's turn to shrug, 'I think we're both in a different place now, I actually really like Mugsy,' she gestured over at the guy waiting for her patiently but a little worriedly. 'Besides I don't think he wants me back either, he just wanted to apologise for the way he handled the thing between us. I was pretty surprised to be honest but he said he'd met someone who made him see things differently and he knew he needed to make things right with us. Whatever I guess! I wonder who this mystery person is though, I never thought Noki was capable of being anything less than totally self-centred!'

With this Rose excused herself and made her way over to Mugsy. As she laced her arms around his waist Lillia saw relief etched on all of his features, despite all the drama this guy cared a lot for her cousin and as much as she wanted to be happy for her, Lillia was jealous.



She skirted the edges of the party, resisting the urge to drown her sorrows and dwelling on Rose's words. She was impressed that Noki had apologised, relieved that he hadn't given her secret away and curious as to who it was that had inspired him to try to change. A little voice in Lillia's head wondered if it might of been her but she ignored it, it was impossible. Their little encounter would barely have registered in the midst of his string of conquests and they were too alike to learn from each other. Besides she didn't care what he did or didn't think anymore. Right?

The night wore on and Rose and Mugsy were glued together on the dancefloor as Lillia sipped her soda only to spit it out at the sight of Daisy, dressed in her sluttiest dress whispering something in a smirking Noki's ear with her eyes fixed triumphantly on Lillia. Enough was enough and Lillia turned without reacting and retreated to her bedroom, she knew how that situation ended and she didn't need to see it happen.



The next day at breakfast Lillia wasn't surprised when Daisy came and sat beside her, the girl never missed an opportunity to revel in the discomfort of others.

'Quite a party last night right?' She giggled.

Lillia shrugged, 'I guess. I was kinda tired to be honest, off in my own world.'


 Daisy looked disappointed for a moment before finding another path of attack, 'That's a shame, there were some absolute babes there, my world sure got rocked!'

'Lucky you,' Lillia's tone was flat and disinterested as she stared fixedly at her plate.

But Daisy was never one to let it go! 'Yeah, Anoki sure is a stud, but then I don't need to tell you guys that do I!'



Lillia was determined not to react but couldn't stop the blush from spreading across her cheeks. Sensing victory Daisy took a breath to deliver a killing blow when the scrape of a chair caused her to pause and another player entered the ring.



'I don't know what you'd know about my talents Daisy!' Noki's drawl had a hard edge to it and it was Daisy's turn to blush. 'Bitchy isn't exactly my type as I told you on the dance floor last night.'

Daisy looked as if she'd been hit, opening and shutting her mouth she looked about the table for someone to come to her aid and when she saw only people trying not to laugh at her she pushed her chair back and rushed out of the room.


'That was mean', Lillia muttered trying to keep the glee she felt at Daisy finally getting a taste of her own poisonous medicine off her face.

'Daisy's mean!' was Noki's only response, 'besides I wouldn't want anyone here thinking that I spent the night anywhere other than on your ridiculously uncomfortable sofa.  I think whoever deigned that thing was a masochist.'

As the atmosphere in the dining room settled back down to the usual post-party banter Lillia couldn't help glancing across at Noki from under her eyelashes. Perhaps she was imagining things but she could have sworn that he'd looked right at her when he'd said "anyone here". It sounded almost like he wanted her to know the truth.


But that was the kind of wishful thinking that would get her in trouble, the kind she had sworn to leave behind her. As soon as she was finish she'd with her waffles Lillia retreated out of the danger zone and up to the safe space that was her room but even her little sanctuary seemed too risky with Noki in the house. Grabbing her purse Lillia rushed out for a walk to clear her head.

Lost in her own thoughts she paid no attention to where she was going, just remembering to put one foot in front of another was as much as she could do. Her head was filled with unanswered questions, what might Daisy do to get back at them after they'd embarrassed her? That small victory at breakfast was sure to cost them dearly once she'd recovered from the embarrassment. Might now be the right time to tell Rose, if she was happy with Mugsy that could soften the blow? Would she even get the chance if Daisy decided to make good on her threat?



It felt as if the last few months of buried worries had all been building up to this moment and Lillia was beginning to realise that she might have left it too late to fix things. She'd been telling herself that she was different to before, that she had changed for the better but she hadn't actually made anything right. If she had been honest then Daisy wouldn't have any ammunition, perhaps she would have lost Rose but it could have been decided between the two of them. Even Noki had had the balls to apologise for his mistakes, while she'd just tried to pretend they were over with.

The more she thought of it the clearer it was. Those miserable few months had not really been about being a better person, Lillia had just been punishing herself as if somehow that would wipe the slate clean. But it hadn't made her feel any better because she hadn't sucked out the poisonous secret at the root of it all, she'd held on to the lie and the betrayal, concealing it behind a falsely sweet demeanour and hating herself for it. Lillia might have changed but not for the better, now instead of hurting others she was just lying to them and hurting herself.

It had to stop.



Pulling out her phone she fired off a text to Rose, asking if they could talk alone that evening and as she pressed send she felt light with relief that it would soon be over.

Glancing around to see where her aimless wander had landed her she saw yellow up ahead and realised she'd was in the road where Noki lived. The drive was empty but as she turned to go home she heard an engine approaching. Ignoring her instinct to duck into the bushes in case it was Noki she continued to walk steadily into the blinding lights of the oncoming car. She was done with hiding from her demons.


The car slowed beside her and Noki wound down his window, his brows tight with confusion.

'Lillia? How'd you get all the way over here?'

Lillia shrugged, 'I walked, I needed some air.'

Noki turned off the engine and nodded, getting out of the car.

'I know that feeling. Look I know I'm not your favourite person but I'd really like to talk to you. I looked for you after breakfast but you'd gone. I'm not going to try anything, I just... Well I'd just like to sort things out between us so we can maybe be friends. I don't know if you remember but before that night we used to have fun talking? I'd like that back.'



The mix of emotions in his voice echoed those which had been swirling in Lillia's head just minutes before. There was hope, hesitation and an edge of desperation. Perhaps she wasn't the only one trying to figure things out.

For an answer Lillia waked around and got in the passenger seat.

'I think a conversation is long overdue.'

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8 comments:

  1. Finally Lillia is going to face her problems rather than beat around it. She and Noki are going to end up together i think and if push comes to shove i wonder if she'd choose Noki over Rose. Daisy is going to do something drastic but she needs to grow up.

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    1. Yeah I think Daisy is vindictive for life but maybe she will eventually take a turn for the better, I, just glad that Lillia is starting to take responsibility for herself. As for her and Noki... I honestly haven't decided yet, he has a part to play in helping her grow but for the long term... We shall see!

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  2. Lillia and Noki I'm making their official ship name Loki and nobody can tell me otherwise XD

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    1. Not even Thor? :p

      Shipper name and shipping noted. I'll consider :p

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  3. Daisy is trouble. I'm glad that Noki put her in her place but I agree with Lillia Daisy is going to do something to get even. It's about time Lillia comes clean with Rose. Hopefully it wont be as bad as Lillia fears and nothing can be worse than living a lie. Maybe after this Lillia will be able to move on and really make changes. I'm warming up to Noki, it was a step in the right direction that he apologized for this actions to Rose.

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    1. She sure is! Lillia's on,to just stopped being her own enemy and now she has Daisy to worry about! Lillia is certainly heading to that way of thinking I never imagined it would take me this long to get her here!
      Noki is having the same sort if epiphany as Lillia... Whether or hit tenure good for each other remains to be seen!

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  4. Hmm... now she's going to talk to Noki, that's good, maybe after that, she'll go through with her meeting with Rose, and then she'll have that weight lifted off her shoulders. I'm kind of glad in a way that Daisy did that because it's caused Lillia to open her eyes to her own life instead of blindly stumbling through it. Good things can come out of bad situations.

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  5. Part of the reason Noki had to make things right with Rose is because he want to be with Lillia. Hehe.

    Hahaha! Noki sure told Daisy. I thought that line was hilarious!! :D

    She might come clean. She and Noki get to talk. Things are maybe looking up. :D

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